#scurf152: Cigarette smoke, smog, dust
& some poems
m o o n d u s t
In with you. Smoggy roads. Sun so bright it burns the eyes. So vague, so hazy. Your room’s light flickering. Warm us, warmer climes. Working together. Cigarette smoke, smog, dust. I’m captivated by your full fig-like mouth. Clocks upturned. Loves halted. A being so flirtatious. Ali Sethi-esque noons. Roaring lives, slick roads, cooped up cab rides. Muddling up our affairs. Your giggles my balm. Your sleep my cure. Life waits. Living waits. Loving dissolves. A new clock. Time doesn’t know its edges. We wish, or scratch that, I wish. Mumble inwardly. Could we have found this before? Not possible. But maybe. You turn sides. Your breathing noisier. I gasp for life. Your moony face, the dust outside, the smoke inside. Something chokes. All of it gags. Fingertips smell like charcoals but also figs. Discovering great nothings. The grave of living all around us. A mosque at our footsteps. A scrawny black cat curled up at the toes. Your cab arrives. Say everything there is. Express all and still continuously fail to. Promise everything. My own words as bullets. Dickensian somethings I continue to murmur. Your cab turns the corner. A stray dog drools past. Longwinded dreams ensue. A perverse sentiment takes over. Nights measured in moonscapes. Living in moondust.
h y b r i d
a love so fresh, it felt like a pruning. did you look into her eyes? my face id didn’t work because your tears choke up my eyes. eyes like gauntlets. fierce, fiery, foolish. showing the rubble of my being. pouring through. over. incandescent in the blazing heat. her eyes so unserious they undo me. i gaze into the horizon, a fever rises and with it a hybrid living. i am with her but also not. i am with them but also alone. a hybrid kind of lovely. the pungent air suffused into the cathedral of my ribcage. the heart wanting to retch out its livid loving. what are these words, even? lonely autocorrects to “lovely”.
n o o n e t o l d m e
my hands sweaty with your tissue poetry
my senses livid with your gothic black heart emoji
who even are you?